I tied my own hands and stepped willingly into cement. I felt the breeze come off the water as I leaned in, feet grounded firmly to the platform. I was alone, but I felt the push. I was there. I did the pushing. And I watched myself plunge into the freezing water. I looked up and saw the amber light on the pier rise and fade into darkness. And everything went black. And I looked down and saw the figure fade into darkness as it sank.